December 2008

I have always been in love with December. Of Course! Who wouldn’t? It is simply because this is the month of my birth and Christmas, and New Year and many celebration during this month. I would never missed any of those celebration. Somehow & someway, my December this year is a bit heavy, I would say. Despite all those hectic moments, busy of Year End Closing, many friends’ birthdays and weddings, I fall in love.

Yep! I fall in love! L.O.V.E

To whom? If you’re reading this, what cross your mind might be “Who’s the man?”

Well, my friend, I am falling in love to special person who has special life and life has been very much treating them special too. Well, I am in love with these many orphans in Pondok Damai. Yup! And btw, they all are girls. I am very much in love with them.

Last Saturday, I joined a Christmas Celebration there, and somehow, I missed those girls already today. Why? I don’t know. But I know I love them and I care for them. If you can explain this feeling, then help me! I can’t! The first time I came there, I feel sorry for them. Living in such a very simple house, which is stuffed by so many children aged 3-17 years old. It was one hell of a house! Not too big, nothing fancy, but all seems enough to protect them. Oh, and I love the Guess Room (where the Sister accept her guests)! I could fall asleep easily there and feel so DAMAI! ( as the name of the Orphanage : Pondok Damai).

I admire these people who live there. I admire their energy, their laughter, their spirit, their warm welcome, their love and attention to hardly known people like me, and for their honesty. They came from different background, different story of life. Yet they don’t just mourning their circumstances, but they fight and living their life to the best. They still keep on laughing, enjoying every moments of their life, and yet not afraid of their future! Unbelievable! I truly admire them. I don’t think I will managed to be like any of them, not even close! I might have committed suicide! J/K!!!

I listened to some of their stories, but not all of course, yet amazingly, it is very much complicated than MY Life! (in which I thought my life is complicated enough!). Thanking them that I can see how lucky my life has been. I still have my parents, brother & sister, friends, still be able to work (this is one thing I complaint a lot about), still be able to go to the movies, to take taxi, to sleep more than 8 hours a day, to hang out and to spend money for my own splurge. How about them? In their youth, they have to share many and learn a lot. Even they have to grow a lot faster then any of us. So, friend, maybe you don’t realize it now yet, but trust me! We are far much lucky than what we thought! L.O.V.E your life! Live in the Moments! And one more thing : BE WHO YOU TRULLY ARE!!

Feels at Home

Gong Xi Fa Chai!!!!!!

Finally I get home safe and sound this morning. Many incidents which makes me arrive this morning instead of last night. Anyway, Let’s just forget about it!
This morning, on my way from Tangerang to Teluknaga, I feel so happy..I don’t know why, but feels so relief finally I get home to a place called home. My Origin Place.
I took angkot and sit next to the driver. The trip was accompanied with oldies Indonesian Songs, e.g Ebiet G. Ade, etc. It was okay for my ear though.

I realized how relieving it was to see green land and scenery. Along the way I can see rivers, Rice Fields, Trees, and much more of natural items. What I like the most from the trip was the wheather was so nice, a bit cloudy and windy, but not raining. Arrive home, meet my brother & sister. Chit chatting, having lunch and then meet my mom, saying ‘happy new year’, took off to my grandma’s house. Meet so many relatives, my uncles and aunties, and also cousins…And the best part is meet my favorite young cousin, Robbie. He’s so fat and so funny…!! Love him so much...Oh, I also finally met my new nephew, Andru. He’s so HANDSOME!! I adore this young man….=PPP

Meet and Greet…is the main purpose of this Celebration!! Trully love this kind of events and celebration. I love my family and also my extended families. I love my grandma’s my uncles, aunties, cousins, love each of them. I am so happy of being part of this family.
O, I forget something, since my other Grandma is staying with us, so, today we had so many guests coming…It was so happy to see so many relatives which I haven’t seen in ages [and of get new updated info of what is actually happening with them…].

This celebration will last, at least, until Sunday. I’m staying home till that day too..so..I need to take this opportunities well…

P.S : We had a new puppy, BONI. He’s so cute…!!!

Btw, ini tulisannya dibuat pas SinCia..eh baru bisa dipost hari ini..hehehehehehe...agak basi yah..=P

into a better person in 2008

Well, people, life truly is rolling up and down. One thing I take lesson of it is that in life nothing is really certain.
Yep, I notice my life since Christmas and until this day, things seem flashing so fast in my personal and professional work. Happy, sad, angry, tired and tears come and go within days, and all the moods seems so easily changing. I don’t really like myself at this time of my life. I hate to have this feeling and feeling so uncomfortable.

Within this couple weeks, some of my friends complaints about me and my responses. It seems I am so jutek (bahasa gaulnya). Padahal sebenernya ga bermaksud kaya gitu sama sekali. Temanku, kalau kamu membaca ini dan kamu adalah salah seorang korban dari kejutekan diriku, aku sungguh minta maaf. Aku tidak bermaksud seperti itu..hanya karena nada ngomongnya salah, jadi salah paham. Maafkan kejutekan dan kata-kata diriku yang tidak dikontrol dan dipikir..Semoga kalian mau memaafkan yah..

Teman, meskipun akhir2 ini hidup dan kegiatan kantor so demanding, tapi banyak sekali pelajaran yang bisa gue ambil dan peroleh. Yang pasti gue semakin mengenal diri gue lebih jauh. Seperti pembicaraan ku per telepon dengan salah seorang temanku itu, kita mesti memikirkan perasaan orang lain dan juga mesti menjaga perasaan temen dan lawan bicara kita. Kadang emang susah kalo kita sendiri punya kebiasaan kurang baik. Hal ini terjadi juga sama diri gue. Kalau kalian kenal gue lebih jauh, sebagai orang yang nyablak dan cuek, kadang2 gue kalo ngomong suka ga mikir. Dari hal yang biasa sampe menyakiti bisa keluar tuh. Dan gue sendiri kadang tidak merasakan itu berlebihan karena buat gue itu adalah hal biasa…Well, I’ve taken my lesson in a hard way ( masih nyesel sih, cuma udah ga bisa berbuat apa-apa nih! TInggal berharap!) Yap, gue kayanya emang terlampau cuek neh..jadinya yah begini ini, kalo nyakitin perasaan orang suka ga sadar deh…

Ga bisa bilang banyak tapi sepertinya mulai sekarang, gue mesti belajar untuk lebih bijaksana dalam memilih kata-kata dan berbicara. Seharusnya sebenernya bukan mulai sekarang ajah gue mulai melakukan ini, tapi semestinya sejak dahulu kala. Well, all had happened in the past, nothing can change it, therefore What I can do is to change my behaviour now and onwards. Hehehehe…terlalu gaya neh bahasa gue…

Intinya adalah, Let us commit to ourselves to make ourselves each and every day becoming better and better…Into a Better Person we should be…

Quarter life crisis?

25 tahun 3 hari (tepat ini di-posting) umur gue. Well, bukan sesuatu yang membanggakan, tetapi lebih pada sesuatu yang patut disyukuri. Tuhan yang Maha Sabar dan Baik masih memberikan berkat nafas untuk hidup di dunia yang fana ini (keren begini yah kata-katanya…=P). Tapi emang beneran. Kalo orang bilang ulang tahun harusnya party-party donk Tine?? Gue bilang, bukan party yang penting tapi berkumpul dan mengucap syukur yang penting.

Intinya adalah : “Men men udah seperempat abad yah gue idup di bumi”
Huahahahahahahahaha..kata orang ada yang namanya Quarter Life Crisis. Kalo ditanya gue ngalamin engga??? Jawabnya TENTU TIDAK!! (jujur!).
Kenapa??? Yah mana gue tau, secara gue bahagia-bahagia ajah tuh idupnya, meskipun di hari ultah gue pulang lembur dari kantor. Dan yah agak sedih karena orang kos lupa semua!!! PARAH khan!!! Iks..iks..

Welcome to the Club kata temen gue. Emang ada club apa yah? Mahjong? Hehehehehe..apa wisata kuliner?fotografi?atau klub nonton?? Ikutan donk…
Eniwei, intinya adalah, I’m 25 now, Single, and amazingly HAPPY!!
Age is just numbers. What should it become to be? Kaya sebelumnya gue bilang di posting Ember Bocor, umur dan kebijaksanaan tidak sejalan. Jadi?? No need to be afraid to be 25 years old young lady. Btw, gak apa2 koq tanya umur sama gue, asal bukan timbangan ajah..^_^
Emang quarter life crisis apa yah? Gue juga kurang mengerti, jadi daripada menuh-menuhin otak dengan hal-hal ga penting, mendingan ga usah dipikirin. Nti ajah pas lagi ga ada topic pas kumpul temen2 baru gue tanyain akh..Hehehehehehe….

Tau ga tau ga..akhir2 ini gue menanti event/orang/ sesuatu yang bisa bikin gue berdebar-debar neh....Uhmmm...jantungku perlu olahraga nih...anybody want to try ???? ;-p

Ember bocor!

Setiap orang pasti punya mulut. Banyak orang seneng dengan mulut yang mereka punya. Mereka bisa bicara. Bicara banyak hal, Cerita ini itu. Bawa berita ini itu. Tebar kata-kata ke sana kesini. Banyak fungsi mulut. Ciuman (hehehehe), makan, minum, mengigit (sebenernya gigi, tapi gigi khan di dalam mulut yah!) dan lain lain.

Ada orang yang tau fungsi mulut dengan baik. Ada yang merawatnya dengan sebaik-baiknya, menghiasnya supaya makin manis dan cantik dengan lipstick atawa gincu. Tapi banyak orang ga tau kapan harus diem dan tutup mulut!!! Amazingly, bukan Cuma cewek yang begitu. Bahkan seorang pria pun ternyata bisa!!!!! Pria oh pria macam gituh..mau jadi apa kau!!!! Pria gossip???
Can’t not stop thinking (baca : ga abis pikir gue!).

Anyway, untungnya dan sialnya juga, rahasia itu bukan ttg gue personal. Kalo sampe iyah, siap2 ajah tuh orang gue labrak (macannya gue kuar neh!). Jadi manusia koq yah begitu, udah tua juga, masih ga bisa ngerem mulut. Kaga tau kapan mesti diem dan kapan mesti buka mulut. Buset banget deh!! Dasar ember bolong. Masih untung dia idupnya ga deket2 sama gue, kalo ga bisa gue monyongin seumur idup deh (berlebihan gini yah gue…?) Eniwei, emang yah, gue bener2 ga bisa berenti mikir deh. Jadi yah sebenernya ketika die bilang “iya, gue ga akan cerita” itu artinya apa yah? Mungkin seharusnya dia lebih baik jawabnya : “iya, gue ga akan cerita ke orang laen di depan elo, tapi kalo elonya ga tau sih gue tetep cerita2 sama orang laen.”
I think that answer is much better!!! ~ at least much more honest ~ RESE banget neh temen gue! Beneran..(map yah kata2nya jadi kurang pantas).

Jadi mikir deh, seberapa banyak sih manusia ini bilang iya tapi pada akhirnya melakukan yang sebaliknya? Gue rasa banyak yah, dan tidak terkecuali gue pasti pernah melakukannya (gue masih manusia juga koq). Dan gue selalu berpikir kalo manusia itu semakin gede angka usianya, harusnya manusia bisa semakin bijaksana dan semakin tahu mana benar dan salah, tau kapan diam dan bicara. Ternyata emang umur cuma sekedar angka penghias kue dan buat diisi di formulir-formulir doang. Ternyata kebijaksanaan tidak berjalan linear dengan usia sama sekali.

Kekesalan yang sedikit membawa pengetahuan lebih ttg tabiat seorang teman…Hope you learn from my mistakes of trusting the wrong person.
Lesson learned!